Getting Back to Myself

Sometimes I see a painting someone else did and I immediately want to make something that looks like it, or feels like it. It can also be like that with relationships right? I seem to get caught up in the idea of something rather than the reality of the thing. Just as paintings are never painted without the work, we can never be in a relationship without the hills and valleys of learning someone. Recently I was reminded of those hills and valleys and at the end of the day, I landed myself another heartbreak. I'm honestly ashamed to report that my art has been suffering because of it. I noticed today as I sat in my studio writing notes over the art I have created, that my art is suffering because I dissociated from it. I have been analyzing the “Why’s” in the aftermath instead of allowing myself to be upset with no explanation. I needed to be upset and not need an explanation for “why?”.

Here’s what I learned about myself: